life restored

I will always remember 2010 as the of restoration.  I married a wonderful man who loves Isabel like she is his own daughter and bought a fabulous house in which to raise a family.  God is a good God.  It wasn't that long ago that I was wondering if I would ever be able to stand on my own two feet.  Then God got a hold of me and helped me to realize that it is never my feet on which I stand, but always the solid rock which he has place me on.

A year of restoration.  I almost let Satan steal it from me too.  When Mark and I got the news about Charlotte Grace we were obviously devestated.  I wish, looking back, that I would have been able to see what the Lord was working out for me.  But hindsight is 20/20, we all know that.  And I suppose that part of the beauty of the journey is learning that I was never destined to live this life on my own but instead live it in God's redeeming grace and salvation.  Since getting the amnio results and discovering that this baby girl is healthy I have had lots of time to ponder over what I would say in my next blog.  I agonized over how to explain all that has been going on inside of my heart and head.  It didn't come to me until New Year's Eve.  We had gone to bed and I was laying there awake thinking over the events of 2010.  My marriage, my house, my daughter, my new car, my fun job at the church, my not so fun job at the office...just thinking over things I had been blessed with.  I can't tell you what a difference it was for me to fall asleep thinking about all of my blessings instead of all of my mistakes and selfish desires.  In that moment before my eyes completely closed and my mind drifted off to peace I felt it in my heart: I will always remember 2010 as the year that God brought restoration to my life.

I was 18 when Isabel was born, 19 when I got married, and 20 when the marriage fell apart.  From there it was just an uphill battle.  I allowed Satan to wreak havoc in my life for a couple of years before I returned to church and admitted to myself and to God that I had tried on my own and failed miserably.  From that moment on he set my feet on a path that would guide me to this beautiful life I have today.  I will never be sorry I followed Jesus and I will never be able to thank Him enough for restoring to me a life that I had almost thrown away with my foolish behavior. 

Job 5:8-9: "But if I were you I would appeal to God, I would lay my cause before Him.  He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted."